aaand i’m back…again

Wow. Eight months since I have posted here. Got lazy again, I guess. Normally when I start again I delete all previous posts. Not this time. I’m going to leave them. Nothing much has changed. Same job, although my hours have changed. Two extra hours on my shifts, but now I get three days off […]

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fun with kik: secrets and lies

It’s been a rough week in my kik group. Started with me and the woman I was kinda involved with bringing drama. Then the best friend of a member died back in their home country. The member was devastated about it. Then last night, one of the women revealed that she’d met her husband’s girlfriend […]

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…headed to the lamp post

And here’s where it starts to end. My conversation with her has been progressing. She asked me the other night about my background. The damn that had been holding back things that should have been talked about during our first few exchanges burst. I kept it brief, but I said a lot. She seemed excited to […]

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future. future? future :)

“Good morning future.” That was the text I received this morning from the woman I’ve been chatting up these past few weeks. She doesn’t say a lot in text, but when she does…man. Butterflies were released in my tummy when I read that. We had a phone call today. This was the first time we’ve […]

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Cynthia

She did it. Not once. But twice. I let her back in. I drank the kool-aid and I ended up getting burned twice. Sigh. Cynthia. Why do I even bother? In my last post I mentioned a ghost that found her way back into my mind. She wanted to go to a strip bar last week. […]

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Ghosts

I’ll get into the aftermath of my last post another time. For now, what’s on my mind is the phone conversation that wrapped up a little over an hour ago. I will try to get out as many thoughts as I can before my sleeping pill kicks in. I believe I have written about her […]

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Her

We met online through the lesbian dating app, Her, a little over a month ago. I didn’t expect it to lead to anything, yet here I am dreaming of building a life with her. One moment we were trying to resolve a misunderstanding that stemmed from not knowing what we were to each other and […]

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Aaaannnddd I’m Back

Have I really not posted anything since August? Yikes. Where did I leave off? I think I was trying to navigate the world of casual sex. Yea, that didn’t work out and I gave up. Am not cut out for it. I was also wallowing in depression, junk food and laziness. It was a hazy […]

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He Knows

Wednesday of last week I had lunch with another woman that I have been talking to. She also has a long term live in boyfriend and four kids. The difference between this woman and the last, is that her boyfriend is aware of the situation and he is fine with it. I prefer that. It […]

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9 Days

It’s been 9 days since my first official casual hook up with a woman. I have not heard from her. I’m ok with that. I did text to say “hello” a few days in, but received no response. I don’t feel good about it, but I also don’t feel bad about it. Well, not my […]

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