Ghosts

I’ll get into the aftermath of my last post another time. For now, what’s on my mind is the phone conversation that wrapped up a little over an hour ago. I will try to get out as many thoughts as I can before my sleeping pill kicks in. I believe I have written about her […]

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Her

We met online through the lesbian dating app, Her, a little over a month ago. I didn’t expect it to lead to anything, yet here I am dreaming of building a life with her. One moment we were trying to resolve a misunderstanding that stemmed from not knowing what we were to each other and […]

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Aaaannnddd I’m Back

Have I really not posted anything since August? Yikes. Where did I leave off? I think I was trying to navigate the world of casual sex. Yea, that didn’t work out and I gave up. Am not cut out for it. I was also wallowing in depression, junk food and laziness. It was a hazy […]

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He Knows

Wednesday of last week I had lunch with another woman that I have been talking to. She also has a long term live in boyfriend and four kids. The difference between this woman and the last, is that her boyfriend is aware of the situation and he is fine with it. I prefer that. It […]

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9 Days

It’s been 9 days since my first official casual hook up with a woman. I have not heard from her. I’m ok with that. I did text to say “hello” a few days in, but received no response. I don’t feel good about it, but I also don’t feel bad about it. Well, not my […]

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the aftermath

Yesterday I had my first casual sex experience with a woman. It was also the woman’s first time having sex with another woman. It was…interesting. No. That’s not the right word. I don’t know what the right word is or exactly what I expected. My biggest worry going into this is that I would end […]

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that was awkward

My adventures on craigslist and kik are going well. I’m getting one or two new people messaging me a day. One person messaged me yesterday and we had a rather awkward exchange. It started with the typical getting to know you questions: where from, age, bf, gf, married, identify as, what are you looking for? […]

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keep it chill

Catching feelings for a hook up is what scares me most about this new casual sex path that I have chosen. I seem to be having ┬áhard time treating this possible meeting on Friday as sex only. I know we’re only meeting to have sex. That’s what I want, but I keep looking past that […]

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what a difference a few days make

I’ve written a few times about how I get turned off when women, well, anybody really,sends me naked or very suggestive pictures of themselves. I don’t feel there is anything wrong with naked or suggestive pictures, I like them, I do (only from women), but I just don’t want to receive them before I even […]

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how do you casual sex?

I received another message from someone who is looking for something “casual”. I want something casual, but I don’t know how to do it. I have been in a casual, friends with benefits situation before, but it was with a man and he took care of everything. All I had to do was show up. […]

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terrible decisions

I received a response to my latest craigslist ad. It’s from a 30 year old Latina. She’s actually attractive to me. Our text exchanges were lightning fast. We hashed out what we were both looking for. I told her I’m pretty open at the moment. She told me she has a boyfriend whom she did […]

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fun with kik 2.1

This post tacks onto the one I wrote yesterday about the woman I didn’t find attractive possibly rejecting me. That didn’t happen because I didn’t send a picture. We chatted a bit and in between texts she would send a picture. It was not helping the situation. If anything, the more pictures she sent the […]

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